i feel the paint inside

everything that happened last time
i dun care even it so hard to accept.
either want to stay alive or just die with that
but i had chosen to still alive
and proceed my life to be better instead to get happiness in my life
i thought i can't go and move on with that matters

now,here i am
i can stand more better than you
i got my life back
even there are something i'm hide from people closer with me
let's gone be by gone
maybe u said i'm wrong
and yeah i was said u' was wrong
but it doesn't matter

how it could be?
or how it gonna be..it's ok..
i don't care about u anymore
now i know i have someone that really in love with m
appreciate me , love me, take care of me
not cruel as u stupid!!!


i dunno..til now i can't stop thinking of u
what kind of stupid are u myra??
but it's ok.. i'm getting better instead i'm fully recover
yeah.. i 'm confess that i always dying to now your updated news
but i will keep avoiding it from days to days


talking about my new one
sometimes we are in trouble
and it can be always we are fighting together
i'm always ask my self?
do you love him and do u still love that guy??
i got stuck.. i'm blur..and i'm stupid
i dunno what the exact answer it is??
it might be yes and it might be not

sometimes i have no feeling at all
about guy , about love , about whatever shit that i dun want to think
but u now..i'm just a human that always have that feeling

i'm very sympathize to him
he always love me more and more
but me??
actualy i love him
but i dunno why it gonna be like this
there are something in my heart that no one understand
it also cannot simply move away from my heart

let's time and situation decide everything